Lyrics

Burn (Caustic)

And so it's judgement day
how long could we delay a bitter end?
I used to feel for you
so much more than I knew
away you send
how much of this friendship can we mend?

I know this isn't the way
and we dont have to do this today
but it breaks my heart
the way that we part
I know that it's my fault too
the reasons why we're through
but you broke my heart
and we fall apart

When you take off your crown
and everything comes down
I know you won't be around
and now I know this wasn't true
the way you thought you knew
but still you follow through

You think I want to burn?
and now I will endure a bitter end
and this how we learn
we learn to start again
you were my friend
this isn't the way that we should end

I'll need you to listen
I have to speak a new vision
there is a light beyond
the darkened cloud
There's no need for this friction
to indulge in a pointless division
there is a light beyond
the darkened cloud

When you take off your crown
and everything falls down
I won't be there to frown
and even now
I know this isn't true
the way that you withdrew
another point of view

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Panic Attack

You found another way
to take this out on me
burnt to the third degree
torn apart to pieces
I've never felt so far away
this is what it means to be afraid
you found another way
to take it all from me
and I can't breathe
(and I can't breathe)

I'm falling down from here
'cause I can't breathe
I'm trying to see clear
I'm falling down from here
'cause I can't breathe
I'm falling to my knees

You found another way
to get this out of me
scared and wanting to flee
there's a part of me
that doesn't really want to know
this is what it means to build my own
the possibilities of escape
are difficult to believe
I can't conceive
(and I can't breathe)

I'm falling down from here
'cause I can't breathe
I'm trying to see clear
I'm falling to my knees
'cause I can't breathe
I'm trying to see clear
(and I can't breathe)

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Overthrown

(and the patches I had worked
to cover up the wounds are overthrown)

Take my hand to summon
up this feeling now
and then we find
it's almost gone
I hoped that you wouldn't
want to take me there
this is not gonna work magic for me

There's not a minute I want to take
I have to find a natural break
I won't be coming back for anyone's sake

Every time I catch myself
when I remember I'm alone
check the balance
push the limits
and I find the seeds are sown
I haven't thought about the pain enough
to face this on my own
and the patches I had worked
to cover up the wounds are overthrown

You did your best to summon
up this demon now
and then we find it's almost gone
I hoped that you weren't
going to leave me bare
you are not gonna work your spell on me

face this on my own
(there's not a minute I want to take)
when I remember I'm alone
(I have to find a natural break)
and I find the seeds are sown
(I won't be coming back for anyone's sake)
when I remember I'm alone

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Blinding Fear

I don't know how to get away from this
I've given up the hope of any bliss
seems like nothing's for me to decide
and I haven't got the will to face my pride

Everything gets written down
I won't make the same mistakes again
and when you want to come back home
it wont be me that lets you in again

It's the fear
I'm trying to stay strong
but it's taking its toll on me
I've lost myself to the fall
and the fear has cut me free
I know it's not your fault I'm in pain
but I'm feeling so unclear
the fear has blinded me

I don't know how to get away from you
I've given up the plan to start anew
seems like nothing real is on my side
and I haven't got the will to stay and fight

(I've lost myself to the fall)
(and the fear has cut me free)

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Anathema [ἀνάθεμα]

He is watching everything I do
just to see if it is true
but I told him it was wrong for me
to see this thing through
I have everything I need
to continue in my greed
but he said that it was wrong for me

There is nothing more that I can do
to myself I will be true
and I told him nothing's wrong with me
I have all the strength I need
to hold on and disagree
but he said that it was wrong, I see

In me anathema is born
and in my soul you want me gone
in this evil that's taken over me
and I am through
in my soul you want me new
because of this evil that's taken you
with everything that you want me to be

And everywhere I go you tear me into three
you're taking me apart
I dont know how I could be free
when you are all I know this is how I fall
I'll run far from you and you won't know at all
and everywhere I go I feel it in the air
I'm drawing down the line
the wave is washing over me
and dont you know he's there watching all the time
I'm picking up the pace and hoping that I'll find

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Problems

You use your problems
as a weapon against others
I'll take the lesson learned
and call it off for me
this impression as
a picture of my problems
and I will figure out it all I guarantee
sometimes I want to switch
my place with another's
and I don't recognise
these problems as my own
if I explain the reasons why
into your face you still won't know

I'm having enough problems without you
I can't add to my load
this nexus draining all I have
I can't rejoin the fold
why are you doing this to me
I don't know if I can hold
I'm having enough problems without you
to redefine my world

when I figure out
my questions I'll be happy
but I don't recognise
these secrets as my own
always terrified I'll never
find a place here
and I don't recognise
these faces as my own

like nothing shouldn't be evading clarity
I know it's hard but this is me

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Phase

and this is what it took
for me to take away
I felt it in the moment
it all fell away
I found something I knew
in every avenue
and this is what it took for me
to take it all away

There wasn't much to say
I had to find my way
I felt it in that instant
that ever fateful day
I had to learn before
there isn't so much more
but this is what it took for me
to find the hidden door

and this is how I knew
that I just couldn't do
I felt it in the moment
it all came through
I thought this couldn't be
a false identity
and this is what it took for me
to learn how to see

it was a phase
you were a phase

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Mars Retrograde [Rx]

Don't tell me this is how it should be
I feel you take it out on me
if I run, I'll fall
I'll never take it all
of what you thought of me
[of what you did to me]
feel this sacred melody
just take it slow and ride on me

don't tell me this is how it should be
I feel you take it out on me
(when my words become too mean
you'll have enough to depart from me)
don't think you know what's best for me
an exercise in futility
(when my words become too mean
you'll have enough to depart from me)
I know that we'll be over
when planet Mars turns retrograde
I know that this is awful
but I can't recognise your name

instead of listening
you took it out on me
'cause you weren't happy
for me to let you be
but you weren't happy
for me to let you be
even though I see
that you weren't meant for me
(Mars retrograde)

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Disciple

The way you cause me pain
and I don't fight it
your infliction is true
I really want it but I'll fight it
take a beating or two
release the bindings from my hands
I'll take a picture of you
so I can throw it back at you

you know that you can be
someone to hurt like me
and this is how I take you every time
you know that I can be
one to hurt you more than me
and this is how you wake up
the beast inside of me
(the beast inside of me)

we'll tap into your power over me
carry out the wildest of your dreams
call it out 'cause this is how it seems
and I love to learn from you
and I love to hurt you too
I'm your disciple
and I love to hurt you too

and you know that this
is not how it should be
the shards of glass are sticking into me
you are not who you used to be
and I was always meant to not see

the way I hate your flesh
but I don't fight it
your infliction is true
I never want it but I'll take it
tear me down into two
release the bindings from my hands
our interaction is true
but I don't want it to be with you

take me deeper down to new extremes
and I will fulfil all your darkest dreams
you lift me up and make me want to scream

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Limitations

Now that we have to face up to this
I didn't think that it would stay
but as I found myself a different view
I know that it will bring the day

so that I know where I stand
I'll take a minute to think through
if there's only one
that can make me feel right
and now I know
that you and I are parting ways

What it takes to feel good
nothing's easy
how I wrestle with myself
don't you know it's not so hard
limitations
how I struggle to break free from me

but as I found myself a different view
I didn't think that it would stay
I wish that it would come to me
oh, what to do?
as the fight enters the fray

how I wish that I could stand
the way I never let you through
if there's only one
but I still know
that you and I are parting ways

I never meant to take it out on you
but this is how I knew
that I had left something so far behind
(but I still know)
and I can't take...

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.

Unfold (The Eschaton) [ἔσχατον]

I have to pray that this is my redemption
from all the burdens that I own
It's cold and this is my protection
from all the shapes that it will mould

Why do I bear the curse of such exception
will all the chances that I blow
Unfold when faced with the rejection
with there no meaning in the world

There has to be another way
another time, another place
for me to go
and I know that
I will always face
this feeling alone

There has to be another way
another time, another place
for me to go
and I know the way back home

Credits: Written by Zac Phoenix.
From the album 'Cold Prospect' by Antiscion, 2012.